this is y i hate not doin my hw..then i come to tutorials n waste time bein totally not productive n blogging lol
oh ya i wanted to say sat's floorball was damn exciting..i scored my virgin goal since enterin nus!!yes cos now i think he quite permenantly put me as forward liao..n i quite freakin happy cos i am like a free bird who is finally able to use her wings..hahaa..k anyways..the match went like tt..2-0 lead by us then 2-2 ends 1st period..then they scored again n carn remember wad liao i think we were denied of a penalty n then they went on to counter us n scored n weewee was damn pissed he shout fuck n kicked the boards..then 4-4 ends 2nd period i think..then we kana penalty n sarah did an amazing save n we went on to 6-4 n won :)
i pon hockey match...n i got triceps ache from shootin a few hoops..how noob
Saturday, March 29, 2008
i like so need to complain..gosh
project works..they drive me nuts..mainly cos i'm doing majority of the work for most of the teams tt i'm in..n tt's wad's tiring me out..reading journals after journals..the same report over and over again..editing people's work or redoing it..
rite now the frustration is on GEM report..on emotions affecting teacher's motivation...they shd do one on emotions affecting my motivation man..5 pple in grp..i am the only yr 1..3 arts 1 computing..n i was initially happy cos i c arts..like wa they sure veh zai rite..bullshit..ok fine to b fair its not all bullshit..i can sorta rely more on 1 girl..but tt's bout it..the other 1 ask her to compile n write intro n review + edit a part of the report..come back she edit but not review n the intro she juz took my draft intro wholesale..no additional input wadsoever..n tt intro was like for myself to organise the main idea of the report..n she was suppose to have done intro at the same time we did the contents..obviously not
then the other 1 wa thurs we had meeting to chiong cos our proj like due comin mon..then we set like beginning of the week know..he come then say he 8pm gotta go cos he meeting his frens at heeren..wa lau..then the other girl tt i can rely on damn bu shuang go say him 'huh we rushin report know?you can go and play?you really wanna leave us here?' wa damn zai..haha..i laughin like mad inside..but he still left..asshole..then again not as if he contributes when he stays..but at least he shd stay u know..
the last guy did his work like 1 hr live interview so i also ok with him..cos i nvr do my interview lol..but then his part of the report i muz like rewrite cos i dunno y arts pple somehow think different from normal..but got some substance there
then this part i dunno who write one..but copy wholesale can!!!like HELLO! we r submitting to turnitin so u juz provided us with an excellent suicide method!wa luckily i go back n reread the article..now i dunno wad else is copied i carn possibly read all the articles used rite
ok wow i juz wrote a report on complaining about writing the report..
back to the report
project works..they drive me nuts..mainly cos i'm doing majority of the work for most of the teams tt i'm in..n tt's wad's tiring me out..reading journals after journals..the same report over and over again..editing people's work or redoing it..
rite now the frustration is on GEM report..on emotions affecting teacher's motivation...they shd do one on emotions affecting my motivation man..5 pple in grp..i am the only yr 1..3 arts 1 computing..n i was initially happy cos i c arts..like wa they sure veh zai rite..bullshit..ok fine to b fair its not all bullshit..i can sorta rely more on 1 girl..but tt's bout it..the other 1 ask her to compile n write intro n review + edit a part of the report..come back she edit but not review n the intro she juz took my draft intro wholesale..no additional input wadsoever..n tt intro was like for myself to organise the main idea of the report..n she was suppose to have done intro at the same time we did the contents..obviously not
then the other 1 wa thurs we had meeting to chiong cos our proj like due comin mon..then we set like beginning of the week know..he come then say he 8pm gotta go cos he meeting his frens at heeren..wa lau..then the other girl tt i can rely on damn bu shuang go say him 'huh we rushin report know?you can go and play?you really wanna leave us here?' wa damn zai..haha..i laughin like mad inside..but he still left..asshole..then again not as if he contributes when he stays..but at least he shd stay u know..
the last guy did his work like 1 hr live interview so i also ok with him..cos i nvr do my interview lol..but then his part of the report i muz like rewrite cos i dunno y arts pple somehow think different from normal..but got some substance there
then this part i dunno who write one..but copy wholesale can!!!like HELLO! we r submitting to turnitin so u juz provided us with an excellent suicide method!wa luckily i go back n reread the article..now i dunno wad else is copied i carn possibly read all the articles used rite
ok wow i juz wrote a report on complaining about writing the report..
back to the report
i know i haven blogged in really long..busy n all..realised my time line is really tight n i gotta pioritise now..like how i've been missing floorball trainings for 2 weeks..feel damn bad..things tt happened r like amara stay n erm sch..
anyways wanted to blog cos i'm emo again..juz watched goong again despite how i shd b doing my projects or sleeping..i juz wish i can learn some emotions..the true meaning to laugh..to cry or juz to feel anything at all..i'm like an empty shell..
i want to cry but i carn..because i dunno how
anyways wanted to blog cos i'm emo again..juz watched goong again despite how i shd b doing my projects or sleeping..i juz wish i can learn some emotions..the true meaning to laugh..to cry or juz to feel anything at all..i'm like an empty shell..
i want to cry but i carn..because i dunno how
Monday, March 10, 2008
One of the sweetest love declaration of all times(besides adam sandler's 'grow old with you' song)
From the movie 'Chasing Amy' which i have not seen n i think jess wld like to watch..not ur ordinary love story ;)
I love you.
And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends.
And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it.
I love you.
Very, very simple. Very truly.
You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being.
And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider.
But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore.
I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you.
I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels.
I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.
And I know this will probably queer our friendship—no pun intended—but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this way before.
And I don’t care, I like who I am because of it.
And if bringing this to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me.
But God, I just, I couldn’t allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome—which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shootdown. And, you know, I’ll accept that.
But I know—I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment. And if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too.
All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds.
Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you.
And I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau.
Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that.
Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me.
From the movie 'Chasing Amy' which i have not seen n i think jess wld like to watch..not ur ordinary love story ;)
I love you.
And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends.
And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it.
I love you.
Very, very simple. Very truly.
You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being.
And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider.
But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore.
I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you.
I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels.
I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.
And I know this will probably queer our friendship—no pun intended—but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this way before.
And I don’t care, I like who I am because of it.
And if bringing this to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me.
But God, I just, I couldn’t allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome—which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shootdown. And, you know, I’ll accept that.
But I know—I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment. And if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too.
All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds.
Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you.
And I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau.
Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that.
Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
new updates..almost all weekends r gonna b packed with matches includin 2 sundays with 2 matches each back to back 
kr hall production - i left my heart at outrum park
saved by kim n francine totally..like they r obviously so experienced compared to the rest...n well done props the mrt is impressive..the sound volume guy sux..the songs some gd some bad but i like it tt its really like a musically not like eusoff's where the dances r juz put in cos they want dances
i made oscar throphies for orly n francine..i'm sorry orly's is so bad compared to francine's cos i made tt 1st from my wadever memory of the throphy..so ya when amelia googled the image i wanted to redo the 1st one liao
anyways here's the better one :)
look i tht i spelt actress wrongly so i tried to make corrections n changed 'R' to 'E'..in the end i changed the correct spellin to wrong..my brain is obviously not there
n cos of rushing this out before the prod..i got stares from the whole biz school cos i looked like a crazy girl sitting there playin with clay
they also ask me to join rag for the structures..n honestly when i saw them doing the structures last yr even as a prospective student..i wanted to join in to do..cos its art n craft man..love it..but i dun wanna become a zombie..cos i know if i join i will..c how
Thursday, March 06, 2008
just a quick one
came back from 1st session of finishin sch..my god..now i know y francine was all negative about her life..i also wanna cross over n whine with her..its like there's SSSOOOO muh to do cos outside the competition is so great..i can already feel the pressure from the workin world..n there's so much u gotta do juz to beef up tt amazing resume..now i know y jon holds interviews n screen his pple closely..cos pple join things for the sake of joining
to exams..i nvr seem to learn my lesson..itchy fingers leads me to changin my ans when i check my paper n then changin correct ans to wrong..2 times already n i know its juz 2 n it doesn't mount to much but with a paper tt every1 scores high it does..i have no idea y so many pple said om was damn hard n fna is easy..cos i stand by the opp view..even though i lost my 1st set of om notes n din study much of tt n they came out so many ques on it..the calculations r all ok provided i din make dumb mistakes..i'm pinnin my hopes on om since my ms failed me..i really quite like decision sciences :)
to after exams..SO NEED A HAIRCUT!i'm thinking of chionging to adrea's place tml morning to cut..then need to get sth for the kr hall prod pple n then do law tutorial n then discuss gem project oh my got so much to do..then gotta focus on open hs n hall n continue my mama shop n foc logistics is gonna start getting work though i really think there's not much to do there then i gotta study more esp fna is drivin me crazy with the current lects n then i gotts BUY my mno txtbk n START to read n i gotta think of wad else i wanna do for summer break cos joan tay made me feel like my time is veh precious then i gotta check out tt diving trip tt jing aisyah n i plan to go for our getaway n then n then n then
i have stuff to do :)
(haha i can imagine jess giving up reading the above para)
came back from 1st session of finishin sch..my god..now i know y francine was all negative about her life..i also wanna cross over n whine with her..its like there's SSSOOOO muh to do cos outside the competition is so great..i can already feel the pressure from the workin world..n there's so much u gotta do juz to beef up tt amazing resume..now i know y jon holds interviews n screen his pple closely..cos pple join things for the sake of joining
to exams..i nvr seem to learn my lesson..itchy fingers leads me to changin my ans when i check my paper n then changin correct ans to wrong..2 times already n i know its juz 2 n it doesn't mount to much but with a paper tt every1 scores high it does..i have no idea y so many pple said om was damn hard n fna is easy..cos i stand by the opp view..even though i lost my 1st set of om notes n din study much of tt n they came out so many ques on it..the calculations r all ok provided i din make dumb mistakes..i'm pinnin my hopes on om since my ms failed me..i really quite like decision sciences :)
to after exams..SO NEED A HAIRCUT!i'm thinking of chionging to adrea's place tml morning to cut..then need to get sth for the kr hall prod pple n then do law tutorial n then discuss gem project oh my got so much to do..then gotta focus on open hs n hall n continue my mama shop n foc logistics is gonna start getting work though i really think there's not much to do there then i gotta study more esp fna is drivin me crazy with the current lects n then i gotts BUY my mno txtbk n START to read n i gotta think of wad else i wanna do for summer break cos joan tay made me feel like my time is veh precious then i gotta check out tt diving trip tt jing aisyah n i plan to go for our getaway n then n then n then
i have stuff to do :)
(haha i can imagine jess giving up reading the above para)
Sunday, March 02, 2008
can it get any worse..
my nightmares have been absent for a while but they nvr fail to remind me of them..they r like so tramatising than any horror movies i've watched tt i can still remember most of them from 1 million yrs ago
yest's was weird n bad..i dunnno y it always involves pple getting killed..but yest's was weird cos it was sorta unrealistic..a first time..its like a freak murder happened n the remains were all along the pavement n a very gruesome sight like no other..like the person was cut up into little cubes n the cubes were left behind like bread crumb trails from hansel n gretal..n i was somhow pushed towards it n i got closer n close stepping over cubes of flesh n approachin the whole chunk of insides out remains in pieces straight ahead n i cannot stop moving closer towards it
so wad does all these horror murder dreams say about my mind or thts?
hope i dun turn into a historical serial killer of all time
my nightmares have been absent for a while but they nvr fail to remind me of them..they r like so tramatising than any horror movies i've watched tt i can still remember most of them from 1 million yrs ago
yest's was weird n bad..i dunnno y it always involves pple getting killed..but yest's was weird cos it was sorta unrealistic..a first time..its like a freak murder happened n the remains were all along the pavement n a very gruesome sight like no other..like the person was cut up into little cubes n the cubes were left behind like bread crumb trails from hansel n gretal..n i was somhow pushed towards it n i got closer n close stepping over cubes of flesh n approachin the whole chunk of insides out remains in pieces straight ahead n i cannot stop moving closer towards it
so wad does all these horror murder dreams say about my mind or thts?
hope i dun turn into a historical serial killer of all time